An open letter to close a life chapter…

An Empty Departures Hall In Terminal 1 Of Manchester Airport

To my family, friends, acquaintances, and people I’ve never met.

As I’m sat here in the airport, I have that feeling you feel when you first ride that roller-coaster you’ve been scared to ride for so long. The feeling is that of the unknown and it scares you but logically you know everything is (probably) going to be fine.

I’ve been waiting for this moment for a long time. A really long time and honestly, I didn’t know if I’d ever get to this point or that it would always remain a pipe dream, impossible to achieve through the cloak of a comfortable, “normal” life.

It’s funny, leaving home to go and travel long-term isn’t really anything unique these days. Lots of people do it, but for me it holds a special meaning, one that is hard to explain to other people, especially those who don’t really know me. Hell, I struggle to understand why it’s such a big deal to me myself.

All I know is that it is something I have to do and is finally happening after all those years of talking about it.

The manner in which it’s came about is something that I don’t think I’ll forget anytime soon. I’m not a religious person and I don’t really believe in fate, but my girlfriend breaking up with me and being made redundant all within the space of a few hours of each other a few weeks ago are both major factors in why I’m sat here today.

Naturally I’m sad about the former but glad we’ve had the chance to discuss things since and the latter, well I never saw it as a career for life anyway.

I’m quite an emotional person deep down, though I rarely show it and as such I find verbalising how I feel quite difficult. Having a blog and being able to write is very cathartic so I want to use this to say the following:

Mum & Dad – without your support and understanding over the years, I doubt any of this would be possible for me. I love you both very much and Mum please don’t worry so much, of all the crazy stuff I’ve done over the years, I’ve enjoyed every minute and still find a way to come back to annoy you ;)

Nikki –  keep working hard and achieving all the things you’ve set out to do over the years. I’m proud of you and wish you and Chris all the best for the future.

Nan – your independence and strength of character you show as you’ve reached your 90’s are a continued source of inspiration for me. I love you and I will see you again soon. (Mum you’ll have to relay this one as she asked me what the internet was the other day..haha!)

Courtenay – yeah you get a mention too..I love you to bits and appreciate your understanding of my dream. Take care of yourself and keep working on your plans to travel! P.s. you’ll always be a bozo!

The rest of my family – Even though we don’t see each other that much, you’re still my family and I wish you all the best with whatever you do. Take care and I’ll see you soon.

To my friends – Again we don’t see each other as much as we should but I appreciate that we all have our own lives now. It makes me happy to see you all doing so well and living your lives fully. I expect a beer or two when I’m back though! Take care of yourselves :)

And to everyone elseif you have a dream, no matter how significant you think it is, I implore you follow it and make it happen. You won’t regret it!

Yours sincerely,

-Craig

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pittsy

1 comment

  1. Su   •  

    Totally agree. It’s the same for me. It’s something that had to be done but it’s so big and unexplainably scary. But I feel in my bones it will be amazing. See you Monday :) Su

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